forgive the forgetful

Haha. I know I have not visited this blog let alone post anything on here for like ages. I was so lazy and plus life was so busy in august and september. And when I finally got back to my normal boring student life, I forgot my blog url and the password as well. Brilliant huh? So, I googled my own blog. Lame? Yah. I know. Haha. It was not easy either as my blog is not exactly the most famous blog in the whole world. (apologies for the exaggeration) And when I finally found my blog. I forgot the password combination too. I tried all the password combination I ever used and finally just a few minutes ago, I managed to sign into my own blog. *pat yourself on the back*

I am not really in the mood to write. But since I am here, I just want to leave a short note to my dearie blog before I am gone again. Haha. Kidding. I want to keep writing. But not now. perhaps later. I'll come back.

Much love,
XOXO

make up gurus..

Hi there,

So yeah. As the title suggests, I'm gonna write about these beautiful girls that have courage and confidence to vlog and do beauty-related tutorials. Ok. I know it sounds soooo girlish. Don't judge me. =p


I can be such an annoying hater. I hate stuff for no reason. (Well, actually that's what my boyfriend said and it kinda hurts to admit it is the truth. Ceh) So, I used to label people with make up are shallow, fake, plastic and so on. I know I am not the only one with these thoughts. But I can be cruel to these people. I don't really want to list the things I did. I am not proud of those things I did to embarrass or hurt others. Ceh. I am still not the nicest girl on earth though.

I watched S02E23 of Modern Family episode last night. And the smart Alex is chosen as valedictorian. She earlier planned to take down her "popular" fellow classmates who ignored her throughout their school year. She wanted to prove that all the "popularity" brought them nowhere and she, the nerd, got the end result, a valedictorian. (ok, you know what I mean)

However, her sister, Haley, portrayed as dumb, popular girl heard Alex while she was practicing her speech. Haley tried to stop Alex committing social suicide. Then, finally, Alex listened to her sister and her speech went something like this; (not in exact words though)

"Everybody has their own issues, the popular kids, the nerds like me, we've got our own issues, I guess what I'm trying to say is, Don't stop believing. Get this party started."

So yeah, I always telling myself not to judge and label people, but that is what I always do anyway.

Ok..back to the topic that I really want to write about, as earlier mentioned. (You probably think I make no sense with the Modern Family stories. Haha) So, these last few days, I've been checking them out on youtube, these beauty gurus I mean. I really thought that these people are so annoying and they think of themselves so highly that they dare to tell the world that they are soooo effing beautiful. I thought of them as shallow, lame and sooo fake. (I know, my thought can be really cruel) Well, turn out, not every single one of them are as terrible as I thought.

So here I am, writing about those people that I underestimated. Ok. Now I feel lame. But whatever.

The first youtuber that I am so amazed at is this Asian girl (but I guess she lives somewhere in Europe) I don't know much about her, but I have watched a few videos of hers on youtube. So, here she is;

I admire her honesty in this video. And she is very down to earth too. Ok. I have to admit. I was quite bias at first when I looked at few of her photos on twitters and fb. She has this tendency to pose like she's the cutest thing on the world. (no offense meant. Ok. Lots of other girls do that too. mostly Asians I guess) Though I don't really like just that one quality, there are soo many other qualities that is admirable about her. Check her other videos. Its mostly about make up  and beauty tips but there are few videos that are fun to watch. She also has her own website => http://www.bubzbeauty.com She is quite humorous too.

 And here's another one,

 Ok. I think this video is one of the videos which she looks her best. So gorgeous. And yeah. She is a Lancome spokesperson. So apart of being gorgeous, her beauty also brings her wealth and money. This one also has her own website =>  http://www.michellephan.com

There are many others beauty gurus on you tube. I just know these two. The other one that is quite famous is this american teenager. (Well, at least I think she is) meganheartsmakeup.

So, that's all I guess.


p/s: I play a lot of guessing game here. The details may not be true.

Till next time,

XXOO

my chaotic life

so yah I am complaining.. But I just need to write this out or i will become crazy. Ermm. Now that sounds dramatic. No, really. I keep distracting myself from one thing I really care about. Not that I don't care about other things. Well, let just keep that to myself shall we. What I really want to write about is how I ended up forgetting everyone else that I also care. I got way too caught up with my life and I forgot that there are others who really care and love me. I forgot to appreciate their unconditional love.

I forgot to call my mother on her birthday. I already skipped wishing her on Mother's day. And now I missed her birthday. I know she was so sad when she had to remind me that her birthday was days ago. And the worst part is, I didn't even realize I forgot my mum's birthday until she reminded me. I feel like the worst daughter in the world.

My mum's reaction huh??

She was so cool about it. She could laugh when she reminded me I forgot her birthday. But I know she was really sad about it. And that is just how great my mother is. She never makes a big deal when there are stuff in her life hurts her. But still, I know she was so sad. I feel so bad about it.

I did not forget my mum completely though. I actually bought her a handbag and a watch for her birthday weeks ago. But being an idiot as I always be, I completely forgot  to wish her ON her birthday.

I know its really unforgivable. And I really sucks in apologizing. But I hope I can make it up to her when I go back in about two weeks. And speaking about that, I haven't booked my ticket to the airport yet. Urrrgghh. Too many things that haven't been done.

I love my mum for who she is. But being the usual me, I keep hurting every single one person that I love.

And I know my mum loves me. Thanks for your unconditional love mum. No matter how many time I disappointed her, she will always be there when I need her.

the heartless me.(world doesn't revolve around you, hon)

This is just a random list of things that keep bothering me. This is not a self pity list. I just need to write this out  because I am not that kind of girl who has BFF to talk to. Well I kinda have one. But I don't really talk to her the way we used to. So yeah. Here's the list.

*I know I am a bad person, but I can't help it. I keep hurting everyone who loves me. (and loved me) And yeah. I keep hurting myself too.
* I am way too selfish to just walk away when I am not needed.
* Sometimes I think I don't deserve to feel even an ounce amount of happiness. (I'm not so stupid. I know happiness is uncountable and can't be measured. I just mean it figuratively) Everytime I feel happy, bad things keep coming back to me. And by bad things I mean all the unfortunate things happen to me, my family, and people I care about.
* Sometimes I feel the world is better off without me. Suicidal thought huh?? Don't worry. I am a coward that I wouldn't dare to hurt myself. Ermm. Maybe. and talking about suicidal, my friend and I were almost crushes by a high speed double decker bus in one of the most amazing cities in the world. (I will write abou that trip later) And that was due to lack of skill to cross the road. So if you have children, please equipped them with superb skill of road crossing.

There is so much to write. But I have to go now to do some routine stuff.

p/s pardon the grammar and the horrible writing and all the complaints. I know its really crap stuff that I am writing.

till then,
XOXO

Insomnia..

I have been on holiday for weeks already but it feels like ages I haven't wrote. Supposedly, I have more free time to write. But yeah, I don't always do things I am supposed to do. *ok, I know it sounds ridiculous* The only reason I don't write more is I don't really have the mood to write. Ok. Scratch that. Its all about laziness all over again. Yah. I am lazy.

Anyway, I have not been sleeping at the supposedly time others usually sleep for months already. Normal people sleeps at night and wake up in the morning but I sleep early in the morning (around 4-5 am) and wake up in the afternoon. I know its very unhealthy. But I just can't help it. I don't want to depend on sleeping pills all the time considering the amount of drugs I have to take due to my other health problems. *I am NOT a drug addict;drugs I take are prescribed by my doctor*

OK. Nak tuka topic; (kalau buat academic writing untuk lecturer tetibe tuka topic sesuka hati macam ni, confirm kene lempang laju-laju dan down gila bila dapat balik result assignment)

Last week, I watched Harry Potter with my buddies. It was as awesome as I expected. The only minor thing that did not reach my expectation was I thought I would cry. I am not a cry baby. Ermm. Ignore that. Ok. I really thought I would cry because there were too many sad events in the plot. But I didn't. Yah. I didn't cry and I am kinda proud of myself. Ceh. It's not that I always cry in cinema. In fact. I never cry if I watch movie in cinema, I won't cry when I watch movie with my friends. But I always cry if I watch sad and melancholy movies alone in my own room. Haha. That's my litlle secret.

Ok. Back to the HP movie and the reason why I didn't cry. I wasn't crying not because the plot was not effective enough. The truth is I almost cried. ALMOST. I DIDN'T cry ok. It was just simply because...

I heard this:

"What??!!! How can Harry die??!!!"

 A girl was screaming at the top of her lungs, shocked when Harry sort of died. Few girls were sobbing so loudly, so sad that they thought Harry really died. I assume they didn't read the book and nobody who actually read the book told them that Harry has to die as he is one of the horcruxes but then he would still live. My colleagues and I could just giggle and we didn't cry. Tak jadi nak feeling dah. But it was still sad.

And the last part. Make up Ginny sungguh tua. And Hermione's make up; looking matured but was still so gorgeous; as Hermione @ Emma Watson always is.

Today has been a long day. And I only slept few hours yesterday. I am so tired right now, and I hope I can sleep early tonight. And just like today. I have to wake up early in the morning tomorrow. Uggghh

Till then

The matrix

The matrix (1999)
The matrix reloaded (2003)
The matrix revolutions (2003)


Of all the three "The Matrix" movies, my favourite is the first one. The plot is just soo awesome and genius. I wonder which genius people came up with such a brilliant idea to make those kinds of movie. To perceive the world we live in as just a virtual reality. The second sequel is packed with actions and stunts and stuff. And I just love how they end the third movie. Leaving the audience with big question mark in their thought, whether this Neo survives or dies in the end.

Somehow or rather, this matrix series have few similarities with inception. Well, I won't say its exactly the same or Inception is copying The Matrix. I would say both movies are awesome, brilliant and genius. But I like The Matrix better.

He is the one..

men in black

I don't usually feel like this, but when I see Keanu Reeves in black like this, I feel he is kinda showing off.Haha

"If real is what you can feel, smell, taste and see, then real is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain." (Morpheus, The Matrix)

Soo.. what exactly is real??

Questions that is left unanswered. Ceh.

Till then
XOXO

action movies

I am soo in the mood to watch action movies right now. Now that I am on holiday, I can watch as many movies as I please. Haha. I just watched 4 movies this whole night. Yah. Its 6 in the morning and I haven't slept all day yesterday and all night last night. (pardon the confusing sentences)

So.. All four movies I watched were so awesome. Well, they were actually old but were pretty big time movies in their era. (not sooo old actually) I myself couldn't believe I hadn't watched them.

They were the incredible hulk, and the matrix series. I really want to write more. But I am really tired and I need my sleep like right now. Wonder if people can just pass out because they feel too tired and sleepy.

When I get upset

When I get upset, one of many things I would do other than crying is to cook. Unlike most people, I don't eat much when I upset. I tend to fell sick rather easily too. I lost weight and bloody bla3. (Yah. I am oversensitive kind of girl. Go ahead. You can laugh)

So, this is what I was doing just now.

Pardon the innocent rubbish bin beside the table.

 If you're wondering what the heck was this girl trying to cook, it is lasagne. Well, it does taste like one. Though I don't really eat much of them.

I had been planning to cook this for quite a while. So, even when I was not upset, I would still cook this thing. It's just that when I cook, I tend to forget the things that make me upset for a while. Yeah. Just for a while. That's why I have this blog. I write when I am upset too.

I won't be providing any recipe as they are tons of lasagne recipe out there. Just google them.

*pardon the language and the crappy sentence. Blame the crappy mood. Well, one of my weakness. Blame something else other than myself. Whatever.

*and here come another problem. Yah. I complain again. I know. My friend said I need an anger management class.

Wonder if we still belong

"Face to face and heart to heart

We’re so close yet so far apart

I close my eyes I look away

That’s just because I’m not okay

But I hold on I stay strong

 Wondering if we still belong"

*yawning*

It's almost three o'clock in the morning. And here I am. I am actually doing my assignment but I don't know how I end up writing here. Well, I am kinda tired and sleepy. But I'm trying my best to stay awake and get my work done. Ugghh. I am also fighting with this hunger. Don't want to go eat at this hour. (The real reason is I'm too lazy to even walk to the kitchen to get get something too eat) Haha!

Such an angelic face

Who don't want to be like her? Hot. Genius. Rich. Famous

I know the pictures are really not relevant. But I like this Emma Watson and I soo want to watch the final movies of Harry Potter. But sadly, I have to wait after all the assignments and exams are over. zzzzzzzzz

Till then..

PRO..

Yah.. I am a pro. Not pro for professional though. PRO that stands for procrastinator. Haha!

I like making excuses to procrastinate things that I should be doing. A very obvious example would be.. Err..Err.. My assignments perhaps?? Lalalala.. The minute I want to start doing my assignment. There will always be so called "obstacles". Lapa lahh.. Pening kepale lahh.. Takde buku lahhh. And thousands more excuses. Ok. That's exaggerating. Maybe not thousands. A few. But the point is, there will always be excuses to procrastinate things. Get what I mean??

And here was what I was doing.. Procrastinating my assignment.. Haha.. Watching movie. Haha.. *Faceplam*

Since I watched X-men First Class. I just can't get enough of his cuteness. *evil laugh*
err.. Why the heck I feel I sound like a crazy stalker. Haha. Like I care! Well. One thing I like about him is not really his cuteness though. I just love his voice when he narrates the story both in X-men First Class and Wanted.

Cute Mc Avoy

Yah. He can be cute. He can be hot. But I don't adore the moustache.

Watched this ages ago. And I watched it again just now.

Hottest ever Jolie.

OK. Enough with the crap. Let's get back to work peeps!
 


XOXO

Things that i wish to say

Random things that I wish to say to someone or just general thoughts but I can't never say to their face due to so many reasons;

* Don't talk to me that you're tired of drama when you're such a drama queen yourself.
* You do know your so called 'public apology' won't change anything right?
* Nobody really cares about your facebook status sweethearts.
* Things or quotes that sound good do not mean they are true, so don't simply copy and paste it as your own saying.
* Sometimes I feel I am hypocrite myself.
* I wish I can let go of certain things in my life but I am too selfish to do that.
* Sometimes I feel like yelling to someone face, "Hey stop showing off, you're not that pretty! Not every boy on earth fall in love with you!" (yah, I know this one is such an evil thought)
* When a random boy asking for your number, you're not obliged to do so. Don't be soo easy babe. (Unless he's really cute. say like chris evans??=p)
* Don't pretend like your life is soo full of drama. Your parents don't love you. Your bf is cheating on you and stuff. You do know you're the third person right sweetheart? (I really wish I don't just blurt this one out. I have no right to judge anyone's feeling)
* The stuff you love, you like, you adore.. Not everyone likes them.
* How come eating a white chocolate makes you a loser??
* You don't fucking know everything on the world!!
* You smell. Go have a shower. (this one is evil thought too. But my classmate is more evil. He covers his nose whenever this smelly girl is anywhere near him. And the girl does not even realize that this boy is being rude. Or she just pretends she doesn't realize that.)
* You talk about time management to everyone else. Go finish your own work!
* Calling others bitches doesn't make you better than everyone else.
* Sometimes, it is better to shut your fucking mouth then talking nonsense and annoyed everyone else in the same room.
* You just don't get it do you? When I say it's A. Then it still is A. Not B. No matter how many times you ask me. (I know this is confusing. Well, nobody's thought is really straightforward. Everybody is complicated. Especially me. Haha! OK. not funny.)
 * Hell you're annoying. Go somewhere else please?
* Ever heard of privacy? Or respect maybe? You don't go knock someone else door at 1.00 o'clock in the morning unless it's an emergency. Or use your speaker to listen to your Lady Gaga songs, or Bruno Mars, etc. late at night.

Forgive the crap. The things I said, not everything is true. Yah. I know. It is just expression of my feeling. (why the hell I care to explain myself?? Uhh. I have no idea)

Been feeling not well for these few days and I haven't touch my assignments let alone to do the revision for my exam. I'm scared that I might as well write craps stuff in my assignment like what I just wrote above. With all these throbbings in my head, I really feel like fainting, throwing up and all the unhealthy feelings.

hey, I'm back

I know it has been ages since I wrote my last entry which was..err last month?? I could list hundreds of excuses of not being able to write my new entry but let's just ignore that ok?

Well, since I have not had the chance to watch the latest movie of my favourite movie series, which I am really upset with this fact. I went to cinema yesterday to watch the latest X-men movie! I seriously love this movie. I love the actors, I love the plots, love the CGI etc. But there is only one thing that I dislike about this latest x-men movie is I don't get to see much of Wolverine. Sob2. He only appears on one scene and the only thing he says is "Go fuck yourself!" Haha. The cool ever Wolverine. Even the very small scene of Wolverine manages to make me smile. Xmen; First Class is definitely one of my favourite movie of Xmen series. (After Wolverine Origin of course! Haha) And by the way, mentioned latest movie that I haven't watched is Fast Five. Yahh. Don't tell me I am so lame that I miss this movie in cinema. I have read enough reviews saying that this so famous Fast Five is the greatest movie of the Fast Furious series. Uggggghhhh!!

Actually, these great movies showing in cinema give me the idea to list my favourite movies of all time. So here's the list! (I couldn't rank them as I have too many movies that I enjoy)
1. Fast Furious series
2. X-men series
3. Iron Man 1 & 2
4. Transformer 1& 2
5. Inception
6. Megamind
7. Mulan
8. The Losers
9. Nanny Mc Phee
10. Yes Man
11. Hangover
12. My sister's keeper
13. Series of Unfortunate Events
14. Terminator series
15. Waiting for Forever
19. Narnia series
20. Charlie Bartlett
21. Mean Girls
22. Sherlock Holmes
23. Die Hard series
24. Indiana Jones series
25. Due Date
26. Date Night
27. Titanic
28. Anna & the king
29. Time Traveller's wife
30. Just My Luck
31. Confession of a Shopaholic
32. Clash of the Titans
33. Kung Fu Panda
34. Gulliver's travel

And the list goes on and on... haha

I think that's all for tonight. I can't always write so much for the time being as I am in the middle of lots of assignments, reading tasks, homeworks and my exam is just around the corner.

Till then..
XOXO

Weekend getaway..

Yeah.. Can't wait for this weekend. But I don't really want to write about that.

There is a lot actually in my mind right now. Fuhh. Since I was a little girl, I always depend on my parents. I always refer to them when it comes to making a very big decision for myself. Deep in my heart, I always depended on them because I was too scared that I would regret my own decision. I was too afraid that if one day, I had to blame myself for the things that I decided all by myself. If I depend on my parents, at least I dont have to take all the blame all by myself. Hmm.. Childish much huhh? Yah. I know. I don't have any idea, why I refer those things in past tense though I think there are times that I still depend on them both. And I have no idea either why lately, I keep talking about them. Guess I really miss them.

When a day like this comes, having to make decisions, having to think something important over and over again. I remember those days, having my family by my sides (literally) to make decisions for me. But now that I am a big girl, I have to be independent. I am sick of people telling me that I am childish. I am sick with people reminding me how imperfect I am. I guess some people around me are sick too, of me to never satisfied with just what I have. I guess huhh?? Hmm. I know.


till then..

Distracted

My very own chart; there are few new songs and some not soo old songs that I can just enough listening to)

1. Nobody's perfect by Jessie J
2. Rolling in the deep by Adele
3. Breakeven by The Script
4. For the first time by The Script
5. Price Tag by Jessie J
6. Turning Tables by Adele
7. F**king Perfect by Pink
8. Smile by Avril Lavigne
9. Push by Avril Lavigne
10. Sing by My Chemical Romance
and the list goes on and on...

and songs that I think are either overexposed or I am just sick of these songs

1. Grenade by you-know-who
2. Lazy Song by you-know-who
3. Just the way you are by you know who
4. Mean by Taylor Swift
5. Who Says by Selena Gomez
6. Jar of hearts by Christina Perri (though this song is still on my playlists. Haha!)

Well, I'm not a big fan of you-know-who. I do not hate him either. It's just that I am sick that some people compare him to irreplaceable Michael Jackson. Duh! Well, I don't really like MJ either though. Haha!

Ok.

Till then

Homesickness

Mum: Abg mie nk kawen pas raye
Me: Ok
Mum. Along ustat tu mnggu dpn
Me: Ok
Mum: Kak murni nk tunang weekend ni. (The list goes on and on..)
Me: Ramainyerrrr. Nak kawen la. Tunang la.
Abah: Nape? Jealous?? Tunggu 3 tahun lg.
Me: Ewwww. Nape lak.
Mum: Belajar dulu. Sok nak exam tu. (Sambil ketawa)

Errr. I don't know what has gotten into both of my parents. Since when I want to marry at this very young age. I am not even 21! (ceh)

"Why want to get married so early? Why on earth want to settle down so fast? Do you really want to stay at home all the time? Cook for one guy until you die??" said a friend of mine. Haha! No comment about this.

Ok. I actually want to write about my parents. I don't know why the hell, suddenly I feel kinda homesick after talking to my parents. Since I was a little girl, I had used to be away from my parents. I don't feel homesick very often. Well, yah. I have to admit now. I MISS MY PARENTS. I MISS HOME. I MISS MY FAMILY. =(

But yeah. I won't go back home. I won't go back to Malaysia at least this year. And now. I have my own reasons. I don't want any chance to run into that someone. Though it is quite impossible to run into someone especially when I always stay at home. 

zzzzzzzzzzzzz. Ok. Enough.

Really hope I will do well for my exam tomorrow.

Hot yet brilliant Cady from Mean Girls.

Hoping to be like Cady. No need to study. Just imagine particular lesson she attended but didn't really pay attention. Yet, can still remember what the teacher has said. Awesome! (Haha. In your dream!! #Faceplam#)

Enough.



P/s; My abang mie is a playboy. Everytime I see him, his desktop keeps changing with pictures of hot and pretty girls. When we were small, we always played together when I went back to my mum's hometown. And During Eid celebration, he was the one who taught my siblings and I to light fire crackers and all. (Though our parents banned fire crackers at home). So not expecting the news that he is finally settling down. Haha
P/p/s: My kak murni is my very shy cousin who is super duper brilliant. She is a doctor. It is a surprise to hear she is getting married because I never heard anything about her boyfriend.

OK! Back to work!
 

till then,
XOXO

Smile..breath..smile..breath

Love those green highlights babe! Well, Avril is just one hot bitch.

Argghh.. Everytime, I am alone by myself, the pain comes again. I thought I won't talk about it anymore. Hmm, guess I just have to breath, smile, breath, smile, and smile again. Until I could really smile and really be happy with just what I have.

I have an exam in less than 48 hours and I really don't need anything to distract myself from study really. But here I am. Haha! Well, actually I have spent my whole night watching the latest series of America's next top model. (Well, until my friend asked to come over to makan2, then we discussed our exam paper. Which was only about like 20 minutes or so. Then we ended up watching video clips on youtube and chatting and gossiping.)

I really love this season as so full of dramas and tears. Haha! Love those two girls in finals; brittany and molly.

 They change both of their hair style just for the panel session. Brittany is looking hot with that boyish cut but this style just doesn't suit Molly. I like her with long blonde hair better. Ok. Enough! Back to work.

P/s: Why the hell, I am hearing this grenade song over and over again. Yeah. I know you have speaker and all. But please pretty please, this is a student campus, not a disco or sth. Be considerate. It's waaaayyy past midnight maannn.

XOXO

I'm not staying in my house for this whole week. And I don't have access to internet at my new place. So I wont be updating this blog.. Manage to kidnap my friend's macbook. Haha! I could die of boredom if I don't have access to internet for too long. Lucky for me, I have my blackberry to always accompany me. Haha. Just finished planning a trip to travel somewhere with my friend next month.

I talked to my lecturer back when I was in Malaysia. She asked, "Have you been traveling a lot? Go outside England?" I answered, "Sadly, I haven't got the chance to travel that far. Haha! Ok Gotta go

XOXO

The luxury of Ben & Jerry's

Forgive me for this another crap entry.

Mood: Quite Happy despite the load of works and assignments. Currently doing nothing really academically useful but healthy for emotion. Well, we all need a break. So, I grab my Ben & Jerry's ice cream (which I won't eat in my home country because its really pricey.It only costs 2pound over here!!), and sit in front of my laptop to watch the latest episode of TV series that I have been watching from the first season; Gossip Girl.

Ok. It's not that I don't have work assignment due by the end of this week. Its just that I need some time for myself. And here I am. Eating really fattening food. Haha. I deserve a treat as I didn't really eat yesterday which causing stomachache earlier this morning.

till then
XOX

Crappy craps

"Take it for someone that's head-over-heels for a Waldorf woman, even everything is not enough. (Cyrus; Gossip Girl 2011)"

Is everything is enough for me?? I keep asking myself the same question. Truth is, I don't know what is enough for me. What I really want. What I really don't want. I don't know anymore. I used to be this girl who always gets what everything she wants. But in these few years, that fact has changed. My life is falling apart. With my family, my study, my relationship, my friends, etc. Everything seems to turn their back on me. But as I mentioned before, I will never let that define me anymore. Not anymore. Ugghh.

till then,
XXO

Responsibilities, Temper, Recklessness

Sometimes we take for granted. Sometimes we forget. Sometimes we become stupid.

But life goes on. Dwelling on the past won't change today and don't let whatever happened to define you.

I'm still busy with my assignment so I can't really spend much time writing here. Till I hand in all my assignments. I won't be having much time to write. And the only reason I am still writing here is that I need a getaway. From assignments, reality etc. Writing for non-academic purpose and talking craps do make me feel better. Well. Gotta go.

Till then

Been busy..

"I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it"

Would something like this ever happen to me? One day some one would tell me that he's married. I don't know if I can ever continue living knowing he has had someone else.

till then

Awesome peeps

So.. I just had my supper. Hehe. I forgot to take my dinner. How forgetful could I be? I lost track of time and when I realized, it was already almost midnight. So, lazily, I just made myself a mug of horlicks and ate two slices of toast. That explains the weight loss huh? I guess so.

Ok. I already watched latest Glee episode. I already love this 'Born This Way' song by Gaga. Though I am not a big fan of Gaga. But I must say, this is one of her best songs. Even there have been some issues and arguments about this song back in my home country. But I don't want to talk about that. Here are some vids of different version of Born this Way song by Gaga.

 

The very original version by the very original Gaga 

 

cover by Glee

 

cover by Maria Aragon (I'm not sure I already mentioned her in my previous entry but this girl is only 10 years old) check out her other videos on YT

 

 And she got to sing on stage with Gaga! Live!

 

 I know this one is not related in any ways to Gaga. Haha! But she is soo amazing! And pretty too. She's only 13! There are quite a lot of her videos singing other popular songs. But so far, I like this one the best.

 and...

 

Sooo adorable.

Till then..
XOXO

I'm trying sooo hard to do my assignment..

Yah.. While I was trying to do assignment.. As always, I got distracted. Haha! BIG surprise huh?

Ok. I got distracted by watching this Nancy Drew movie. Totally not movie of the year of course. But hey. It was worth watching (Self defense for failing not managing to stay on track with my assignmentSSS) Emma Robert is starring. When I was in school. I read few books of this Nancy Drew series. But seriously, I'm not really a big fan of this series. Not saying that I dislike the book though. I watched this movie because of Emma Roberts is in it.

Clues!! HAHA! totally adorable

Looking good as always Emma!

Ok. I also watched another movie of Emma Roberts which is "aquamarine". But don't worry. I wont write anything about that stupid movie. Err.. Maybe its not stupid. Just not my type perhaps.

Back to Nancy Drew. So I discover another not-so-new song by Corrine Bailey Rae. Honestly, I never heard of her before. But I enjoy the song.

 and here's the lyrics.

"Like A Star"

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,

Now I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind

I know its a very sentimental song.

Till then.

All I need

One of my favourite songs..

"All my agony fades away

When you hold me in your embrace"

Yah. I miss old times.

"Nikita: You got to boss me around again.

Michael: Not that you listened.

Nikita: Just like old times.

Michael: Not old times, new times."

       (Nikita S01E19)

Maggie Q in Nikita

Nikita is one of the TV series that I would not miss every week. It's a "spy-like" drama packed with action, hot women, macho guy and etc. Not in the mood to write really. But yah. I miss old times. If only I can go back to the past and change everything. If only I can go back to those times and cherish it to the fullest. Well. No use to dwell. "If only" won't solve anything.

Till then

distant

You said distance would never separate us. And yet. It does. I miss you. But I can never tell you that anymore.

We were once so happy.

 I am sorry. That's all I could say.

Funny Story

It's Kind of a Funny Story

I Know it's 3.17 in the morning. I've just finished watching this movie. And I feel like I have to post it like right now. It seriously an awesome movie. It's about a teenage movie who is so depressed. Some says it's ridiculous for teenagers to commit suicide. Just because they have no friends doesn't mean their lives is over. But that's the point. Nobody takes these teenagers seriously. They feel like they're all alone. Well, if you feel so fucked up. Go and watch this movie. MAAAYYYBBEEE, you would feel better about yourselves. 

Ok. I don't want to say much because I really gotta pee right now. Err. I mean.. Yeah.. Nature's call.

And also. Emma Roberts is staring. Zach Galifianakis too. Haha. I love this guy. He's just hilarious. 

Ok. Really gotta run. Bye now.

Til then 

Charlie Bartlett

Before I tell you what's the story is about. I'll just list some quick facts why I love this movie.

• Robert Downey Jr. is starring. So it's no wonder that I am so in love with this movie since I am a HUGE fan of him. ^____^
• First movie I saw that featured Robert Downey as a seriously jackass and alcoholic father+principal. We saw him in Due Date, Iron Man and Sherlock Holmes as this perfect+macho guy who owns his life. So, this time I get to see the other side of him.
• The hero is kinda cute. His intelligence is just soo super cute. HAHA! 
• The story actually reflects what a high school girl really like. I like how the heroin is portrayed in this. She is neither a perfect blondie cheerleader nor a beauty queen. Yet, she has her own aura that makes her quite attractive.

Introducing you to Charlie Bartlet! aka Anton Yelchin. Cute huh?

Kat Dennings as Susan Gardner. She don't look this stunning in the movie.

Told yah.

Ok. So. This movie is about this genius who gets kicked out from one private school to another because of the abuse of his intelligence. (You gotta find this out by yourselves and see what he actually does. So cool yet illegal.) Then, his mother decides to sent him to this public school. He is soo genius that he manages to make money and gain popularity (Which is very important to these high school kids. Damn. Any high school kid actually.) He kinda selling drugs but eventually he changes his business area. This is due to an incident where one of his "client" nearly dies of suicide swallowing up drugs bought from Charlie. Ok. Just see this movie for yourself. I strongly recommend this one.

Owh. And I discover this pretty awesome band in this movie.

Call themselves "Spiral Beach".

Gotta listen their songs, I searched them on youtube.

Well. I am on holiday yeah. But I actually should be working on my research paper. Urggghh..

Sometimes I feel like my review is like appreciation of some literature works. Well, if you are taking some English language course you would understand what I am talking about. Sometimes I pretend that this blog is some medium to improve my writing. Well, sometimes I pretend this is where I express my many complicated feelings. Some other times, I think it is where I actually err.. I've talked wrote too much perhaps.

P/S: Ignore the last bit. I myself don't understand what I wanna wrote really.

Till then
XOXO

Easter

I finally watched Sucker Punch in cinema. It was actually a good movie. But my friends didn't really like it. They asked me for refund because I was the one who made them watch this movie. Urrgghhh.. Enough of Sucker Punch.

I am on holiday now. So that means I have soooo much time to waste and I just finished watching "10 things I hate about you". The TV series of course. They only have one season with 20 episodes and the last episode is kinda abrupt.

Watched the movie ages ago. I just have to love the movie. I can't remember how many times I actually watch it. And of course I prefer the movie version over the series version as Kat Stratford character in the movie is soo much cooler. And sweeter too. And prettier too. And smarter too. Annddd. Ok. Enough.

Patrick and Kat- 10 Things I Hate About You (1999_movie)

10 Things I Hate About You 

"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all".

(Kat Stratford 1999)

 Till Then..
XOXO

Sucker Punch

Amendment: Emily Browning character in Sucker Punch is called Baby Doll not Lucy as I previously mentioned in my previous entry here. Lucy is the name of her character in Sleeping Beauty. (It is still not in cinema yet)

I watched the you-know-which movie. And its true. It wasn't up to my expectation. It wasn't the movie I expected it to be. And I am a bit disappointed with that. But I do enjoy the movie. Superb CGI. Great storyline. The movie requires you to think and if I spoil the detail. I strongly believe that you won't enjoy the movie. Well. I don't really recommend this movie. But if you do looking for something movie, it MAY be a right movie for you.

I really should be working on my assignment.. Like right now!

Till then..

Distracted..

Hey you.

Aha. I have just handed in one of my assignment today. Yippie. Err. But I cant be too happy as one more assignment is due on friday. Haha! I've done practically nothing for this assignment. Every time I sit in front of my laptop trying to focus, I got distracted by FB, blogging (like right now), youtube and etc.

OK straight to the point.

Taylor Momsen can also sing! She has her own band and they call themselves "Pretty Reckless". Well, truth is. I still prefer her in Gossip Girl. The songs is written by Jenny oppss.. I mean Taylor and her band mates. Great songs but their VC is very zombie-like movie. Can't believe that she is still underage. Well. See for yourselves.

Check out their other songs. It sounds pretty great.

XOXO

True love

Is it even mine in the first place?

SPEECHLESS, SADNESS, DISAPPOINTMENT, DESPAIR, TORTURING, HEARTBREAKING...

Till then...

Whip it

I watched this movies few days ago. If you're looking for untypical teenage movies, I would strongly recommend this one.

 WHIP IT (2009)

I soo love this movie. Its about a teenage girl searching for her true passion in life. I really love the part that she dyes her hair blue for a beauty pageant just to annoy her mum. HAHA! But my favourite part is of course the part that she slaps the boy she used to date. I seriously thought she would forgive that boy like in any other happy ending love story. You rock babe!

Ok. I can't write long. Working on my assignments. Arrrggghhh. It takes like forever to finish all the assignments.

Ellen Page is sooo cool

Love her chic style

Nice hair

Nice hair. Nice dress. Nice smile. Err..

 She also stars in Juno, but I like her in this Whip It and Inception better. Well, I don't really have time to write review for all the movies I watched (Because I watch too many movies and it would take forever just to list them all down..Yah.. I am a movie-freak. So what)

Well. Who cares what I write in here. Opps. Somebody cares HAHA!

till next time

More on Sucker Punch

Well.. This movie has been in cinema in US. I have read some reviews. Some says it's really awesome. But there are few reviews that I read that say the movie is not up to their expectation though the CGI is superb. Well, this just make more and more anxious, waiting for this hilarious movie to come out. And guess what, Emily Browning sings few songs for the soundtrack of the movie. I have no idea that she can sing.

One of the songs that she sings. Check out the other songs on you tube.

Beautiful Emily Browning

You go girl! You just get yourself another fan Emily! Err. Actually, I have been admiring her many talents and beauty since I first saw her in the movie of "Series of Unfortunate Events". Well. Too bad that Sucker Punch will be only in cinema on 1st April. Which is the day after tomorrow. Arrrgghhh. But still..


I can't still go to the cinema on 1st April as I have few assignments to hand in next week. And here I am, writing a new entry while I am supposed to be working on my assignments.

Moral of the story: Finish your assignment before even thinking about watching movies.

XXOO

Latecomer

With a very "blur" face.. Knocked on the door. Looked around the classroom. There was nobody else except my lecturer and I. ERR...


Me: Am I the first??

My Lecturer: Yup. You are. You are so surprised aren't you?

Me: Yahhh... (Stupidly I answered) I thought the class is canceled or something.

My Lecturer: (Being a sweetheart as he is, he smiled) Not really used to coming early, do you?

Errr.. Face palm..

Lesson of the day: Come to class earlier peeps.

Hot chicks

XOXO

Super Duper Crapping

I don't know why the hell I'm feeling like this. Well, congrates to myself for always getting yourself in a big mess. I know there are thousands other peeps whose having bigger problems than mine. But I don't know why that fact don't make me feel any better. Like seriously, I see other people around me having bad days just because of jealousy, bad hair day, lateness of allowance etc. Seriously girls?? I know I am in no position to say that my life is a mess, but that is exactly what I feel right now.

Hmm. People say talk to them when you have problems. Don't keep it to yourself. Well, hell to that. They never really mean it. The minute you tell other people your problems. They start to judge you.

Patience. Yah. I really need a dose of patience. If only it can be sold in pharmacy, I will be the first one to get it. OK! I know. RIDICULOUS!

This is written when I am really not in a good mood. Pardon the language and the exaggeration.

Writing here does help to calm myself.

Till then..

Missing Somebody

Here's a perfect song to listen when you're missing someone you heart so dearly..

For the First Time by The Script

Search on youtube for their official video clip. The story line of the video clip is so sweet.

Well, if you miss somebody so much, even after you know him/her for years. It will feel like the first time the next time you meet him/her. For those who are in a long distance relationship, you'll know what I mean.

till then
XXOO

Who's perfect..

WARNING!!
This particular entry is specially dedicated for an amazing guy in my life. Read at your own risk. If anybody feels like throwing up, you are the one decided to read. Kiddin!

Thanks for always being there for me. Though I always hurt you. I told you, I always screw up. And yet, you are still here with me. Thanks dear.

Nobody's perfect. And I never ever ask you to be perfect. I am terribly sorry that I have hurt you soo many times. Just please don't give up on me.

You'll always be my hero. I love you so much.

till then..
XOXO

Just another crap..

"Owh, cantiknya awak.. Kenapa la saya tak cantik macam awak ye.."
"OK.. Saya hodoh.."

padahal make up tebal seinci, tudung terbelit-belit, dress up mcm mak datin

For those who say themselves ugly and praise other people just to fish for compliments, f*** off..

ok.. I don't know why I am sooo emotional about this. Pardon the language. But I really hate when these kind of peeps fish for compliment when clearly they know they are not that ugly. Lain lah klu kau memang da kene sumpah jadi katak ke. Jadi hodoh macam laki dalam beauty and the beast ke. (anyway, I am looking forward to watch Beastly. Vanessa Hudgens and Alex Pettyfer are starring!!)

Ok.. Back to the topic. I am tired with these peeps who are sooo "being humble and modest" but actually fishing for compliment.

I'm not feeling so well. So forgive this another crap entry. Internet pon macam siput. argghhh

till then

Leighton Meester is a Goddess

As you can guess, I am already a HUGE fan of Leighton Meester and Blair Waldorf. I haven't watched her new movie, Country Song but it will be no surprise if I say it is a good movie. =p

Being a goddess as she is, her voice is just epic. I never really like her songs before "Country Song" movie. And country song really suits her voice.

This is one of the soundtracks. She is just amazing. The movie is actually released in December 2010. But it too bad that it won't be in UK cinema until this coming April. I am soo looking forward to watch this movie..

2011 is a very exciting year as there are sooo many movies that I am looking forward to watch..Haiissshh

till then..
XOXO